Dear Inner Circle,

How are you?

I am writing b/c many of you have heard of my decision to not move forward with the surgery (mastectomy). I am experiencing some acceptance by those who get me and a lot of concern, sadness and anger from others. I feel the need to bring my community into alignment with my choice b/c your thoughts and conversations effect my healing process.

I want you to know that I was more than willing to let go of my breast. I was excited for the reconstruction. I have a wonderful team of MDs and practitioners supporting me. However, as the surgery approached, I was bombarded with many surprises about my treatment plan. It required way too much compromises and helped me to realize that going this route is absolutely not my Truth. It is not what I believe will heal me. I have always believed that this path was more destructive than healing. It has been too much of a paradigm shift to make in less than a month. I need a gentler path. One that includes spirituality and natural methods. At this stage, I am not willing to subject myself to nuclear medicine and radiation. I already feel I have moved further down this path than was in my comfort zone. I did so, b/c of outside influences and b/c of my own fear.

My faith in my own ability to heal myself has been restored b/c big miracles have happened in my life in the past week or so. Some day I will write a book about the multitude of miracles that have transpired this year. It is too extensive to write in one e mail and those who have not experienced such miracles in their lives may be skeptical. I do not want that energy in my field.

Medically, my oncologist has informed me that the cancer on the margins of the biopsy were contained in tumors and not running wild (invasive). The invasive cancer was removed. When I check in with my breast and my body, I feel my ability to heal. My medical intuitive, who cleared her breast cancer with very little natural or western medical intervention, also agrees and is assisting me. Much has passed over the past year that has moved me from a state of fear and loneliness to a state of health, confidence and trust. I am completely content being with myself and my guides. I am being fully supported by the Universe.

So I ask you to visualize with me that I CAN DO IT! I have healthy, cancer free breasts and I am being fully supported on my path to clear the cancer. The cancer is cleared NOW.

Set all your doubts and worries aside and join me in this powerful affirmation of my ability to self heal.

I have my own ability to monitor the cancer. Trust that I do. Please do not ask me to be monitored medically. Every additional mammogram or biospy just aggravates my body and breast. It is not productive.

I am off to Harbin for an extended retreat with no return date. I will stay for as long as I need to. I will know when it is time to return. I need to isolate myself from others feelings/concerns. I look forward to being one with nature, being surrounded by light beings and doing yoga that serves my healing.

I will see you when I return. My medical leave is 6 weeks. In that past, a few weeks at Harbin was more than enough. We'll see what this trip brings.

Happy Spring! Happy May!

I love you all SOOOO much!

Prana